What is that like for you; do you feel it in the pit of your stomach; do you have a premonition; a prophetic dream?
For me, I was in SeaTac airport having checked in to our journey to Peru and I felt a sensation on my face, a tingling. I don't feel energy on my face that often, when I do I know that I am releasing some big emotional stuff.
The subtle tingling in my face came and went. It was new and I put it down to menopause but in the back of my mind I knew we were in for a big adventure.
Our long journey via Atlanta got us to Lima in the middle of the night. As we dozed in the airport lounge waiting for our flight to Cusco, I felt the building shake and I opened my eyes. One other person was looking around. I checked my quake app and sure enough, an earthquake had just happened some distance away!
The facial sensations continued during the entire week. When we arrived in Cusco we found somewhere to eat before conking out asleep for the night. The restaurant offered Peruvian dishes, an interesting selection, including Alpaca and Guinea Pig. Just the thought was repulsive. I ordered beef but didn't enjoy it. I was curious to observe how my body and mind were responding to the food. I was getting "No" on most things on the menu. The physical sensations to food continued. Revulsion became nausea when I thought about eating meat and cheese, things that normally I love. My body responded to soups and vegetables with anticipation and enthusiasm so that's what I ate when I could. I supplemented with water and cereal snack bars when we were out for the day. We went to see the Shamans, hiked in the hills with a guide and meditated in an ancient temple.
After a few days I was routinely ordering a vegetarian meal because my nausea and revulsion kicked in when I thought about food. One evening Steve ordered Alpaca steaks and when it was brought out I was moved to tears. I decided that I must be on some sort of cleansing diet and my body and spirit had decided I needed this, in order to process the amount of energy I was processing. The energy expended in physical exertion and in spiritual awakening. The high areas had very light and high energy. There was one place that had my face tingling more than anywhere else and I really felt I had been there before in another lifetime.
On the way to the internet cafe my nausea had kicked in quite a bit but it was when we were less than 5 miles outside Cusco that I knew I was in trouble. My whole body felt nauseous! My whole body felt tingly, like everything inside me was preparing to be hurled outside me via my throat and mouth. I breathed deeply and finally told the people that I was really nauseous. I thought it was only fair to warn them they might be in the firing line. I was handed a plastic motion sickness bag by someone and we continued on our way.
This was like no driving I've ever experienced. The driver had his foot down and we sped through villages, round curves at what seemed like 100 miles an hour. At one point we were at 5 thousand meters. METERS! I was deep breathing, grounding and praying. Fervantly! My prayer went something like this "ok if I'm going to throw up please let it be inside the bag, or on the rubber floor mat, but really the bag is better" "don't let the vomit get everywhere, it'll smell, if I keep breathing just help me contain it."
But then there was a low rumbling and grumbling deep in my belly, no not the belly, lower, the rumbling was low in my gut! The sensations of rumbling and movement became apparent inside me. It was how I feel if I've got the belly flu and am about to lose the contents of my bowels!! "No, not diarrhea!" I silently prayed in a loud voice in my head. My face was green. My husband was doing energy work to help me. This time my prayers were rather more specific... "ok, if anything's going to come let it be just the vomit! I can deal with that. No diarrhea! No seriously, I totally get that it must be a huge healing to puke and shit everything out of my body and I see that this is a gift.. thank you by the way... however the timing doesn't work for me. I mean this is really bad timing. So can we make a compromise? How about, to take advantage of the healing coming my way, I NOT release the contents of my body at this moment, but instead when I get home I schedule a healing from Catherine and start a series of colonics?" I prayed this prayer for the next gazillion hours constantly. The motion sickness bag stayed clean, nothing emerged from either end. I prayed fervent thankyous. Thanked my magical husband. We made the flight, and the next and the next and with each leg I felt a bit better.
After we got home I scheduled a healing session and booked my first ever colonic. I keep my promises. Yes Spirit has a funny sense of humor. The thing I thought I would NEVER do I was embracing like a zealous convert. And still, when I look at or think about eating animal products my stomach revolts, it's guiding me on what to eat. Right now I've maintained a Vegan diet and feel good on it. Now I can appreciate the connection between gut health and physical, emotional and spiritual health. Spirit can't get in to the places where we hold the most toxicity, whether that is from old unhealthy foods or from old emotions like shame and criticism.